For myself

February is over by tomorrow. Unlike January, which felt dragging, this month feels like a passing force. I anticipated it and imagined an easy, vibrant chime every day. But it is surprisingly different, to say the least. First devastation: I contracted chicken pox from my nephew in the first week. I did not show up at work for five days. The fever and blisters were over, but I am dealing with the dark spots.

When I had an on-and-off fever for a week, I managed to tidy up at home on the first day. It was my way of convincing myself I was strong and that my body could resist the virus. But I was never comfortable until it subsided. I stayed in my room even if all I could think of was missing work. Movies helped comfort me. Sunny, one of my dogs, also stayed in my room to help with my coping. It was a tough time. I even mind-traveled into the future to see my partner comforting me during similar downtimes. It would have been easier if my person was around. But I know I had to go through it alone for an important lesson.

I need to listen to my body more and its needs. Aside from being extra with my skincare routine these days, I take vitamins to aid in lightening my dark spots. This is a first for me. And now I appreciate what they say about supplementing your diet because not all you intake contains the nutrients you need.

About work, it is becoming more hectic. I have a brand manual to draft on top of the newsletter I am maintaining, activities to document, and visitors to accommodate from time to time. Last week, I worked overtime from Friday to Sunday to assist in an international conference. It was a drain, considering I worked for seven days straight, no weekend healing, another first time.

But I find it motivating, as always, the idea that there is a gain for every action. Perhaps all the commendations and praises are what I needed to endure. But they do not equate to the internal gratification I find motivating, which is the idea that I am widening my grasp of the university, my new second home.

February is revealing to me lessons about self-love and appreciation. I need to care extra for my body because it is the only vessel of my pursuits. And, even if the challenges seem never-ending, I am progressing here.